I need holidays

I feel like I'm finally coming to the top of the hole of water I was drowning in. I've finally finished most of my assignments.

I have finished my religion and gotten my draft back, tomorrow I will finish my english assignment, I have finished my maths and science assignments, I am about half way through my home ec assignment, the draft for my social science assignment (french revolution) is due on friday so I am almost finished that and I have gotten my draft back on my business report and just have to change two sentences.

I have written science study notes that are up to date with what we have done in class but we still have more things to cover, I'm slowly starting to revise everything for my maths exam and I still have no idea how to use flash.

I still also have to write an evaluation and present it as an oral for business, I hate this subject and have to work in groups which is driving me nuts!!

I need holidays ASAP!! I'm sick of school and I'm sooo tired!! I can't wait for the holidays to begin and I have already planned lots of things I want to do. But I've only got 2 weeks so Im not sure I'll get them all done!!!

I'm still stressed and finding year 9 very hard to coupe with and being sick makes it twice as hard but I'll get there and my mum has been so very supportive, I can't thank her enough. She is so willing to help me, she never does my assignments for me but she goes out and gets me books for research and things like that which are invaluable and I'm truly blessed to have her as my mum. She has been amazing.

My friends have also been so supportive and are always willing to help me catch up and borrow their notes!! I'm also blessed to have them in my life. M, L and E my besties are some of the kindest people I have met!! I can't thank them enough for their support and help.

How's your week going??

Charlotte;)

10 months!!

Today I have been sick for TEN months!! Ten months ago today was the first time I'd ever had stomach pains and tomorrow ten months ago was the first time I had been to hospital. I can't remember what it's like to not have pain. My new normal is pain. It seems like I've had this for longer than ten months but ten months is a long time.

So far I have been suspected of having appendicitis, crohns, polyps, IBS and heap of other things. I've been diagnosed with Blastocyts. I've seen over 50 different doctors and they all pretty much have no idea what's wrong.

Today I feel pretty good though!! I think I mightn't be gluten free any more!! I have eaten 3 pieces of bread, 1 chocolate croissant, a few crumbed prawns and 2 crumpets today!! They all contain gluten and I've had no reaction whatsoever. Before I would have had really bad pains in less than 10 minutes.

So overall I'm still sick but I'm slowly getting better. I am having really bad nausea every.single.day at the moment, my stomach pain are pretty good, I'm still feeling quite tired and fatigued, I still sometimes feel dizzy and my bowels aren't working but apart from that I'm feeling pretty good. I've still got a long way to get back to my normal self but I'm closer than I was last November.

I hope everyone is having a great weekend!!

Charlotte;)

Drowning

I feel like I'm drowning in school work!! I've have so many assignments.

I have to right an essay on the French revolution, the draft is due next week and I've only researched it, I haven't even started to right it.

I have to write a newsletter for religion, the draft is due this Friday but I've got an extention until Monday because I was sick when they did it in class. I have to write three letters to the editor which I've done, I also have to write a feature article which I haven't done, an advertisement which I also haven't done and a bunch of other things I haven't done.

I have to memorize a story for English that I've written but I have to write it put again in exam conditions!!

I have to write study notes for Science and Maths.

I have to learn how to use flash and do buttons and that type of thing and its hard and very confusing.

I have to wrote a business report which I find boring and difficult. I hate business soo much!!

I have to embroider a laptop case for home Ec, we had to do pillow but I asked to do a laptop case instead.

I've already handed in three assignments and done one exam. For my maths assignment I got an A+ and for my home Ec exam I also got an A+. I'm really happy with those results!!

I've cried and cried and I've never felt so stressed in my whole entire life. If I don't achieve good results I will be very disappointed in my self but I'm trying really hard.

Day to Day

I had my appointment with the doctor who treats Blasto on Monday afternoon. He was happy with the progress I've made.

I am now eating more gluten and lactose containing products and have had no side effects which is great!! On Sunday night I even had an ice cream with no pain and then on Monday I had a normal muffin and a piece of normal chocolate slice (not very healthy, I know) and had no reaction.

My stomach is also less tender (or something like that) , when you poke it it doesn't hurt as much as before the treatment for my Blasto. Which is another good sign.

I know have to wait for 3 more weeks and then get re-tested. I'm not feeling to good today but the treatment not only tried to kill the bad stuff in my stomach it also killed the good stuff in my stomach, so now I just have to wait for everything to settle down and see if my pains are still here. Hopefully not!!

Yesterday and today and I have no school, so I'm working on the SEVEN assignments I have due!! I've finished one, maths, which is due tomorrow and the rest I've done a bit on but I've got alot of catching up to do as well!!

I hope everyone is having a good week!!

Charlotte;)

Mish Mash and the END!!

This post is pretty much what has happened in the last 3 or so weeks because I'm busy lazy, well I have been busy and sick as well. But I'm just getting used to making time to blog and it's not really working how I would like it to but I promise I'll start to try harder from now on.

The END: Well it was a long 10 weeks but I have finally finished my 10 day course of THREE different antibiotics. I was very very very sick Wednesday and Friday night and then on Saturday night I was very sick again. I was almost in hospital but we have Endone here which is a form of morphine and I took that. I had nausea, headaches, very bad bad bad stomach pains, dizziness, aching arms and legs and I felt so tired and exhausted. These antibiotics are meant to get rid of my Blasto but I can't get re-tested for another 3 to 4 weeks!! I don't know how I'll be able to wait that long but hopefully the time will fly by. I know a lot of people have it a lot worse than me so I keep thinking about them to put my situation back in perspective.

I ended up having last Wednesday, Thursday and Friday as well as Monday to Thursday this week off school and today I went in for half a day of school. I have SEVEN, yes seven assignments due this term and FIVE exams (and I'm only in year 9) so I am quite behind with everything because I couldn't do any work when I was sick, so I haven't done anything since last Monday night cause I was sick on last Tuesday night. So I have A LOT to do!!

Before starting the antibiotics the doctor recommended that I had 2 colonic washouts to help them work. I was very apprehensive about it so my mum rang the lady and we went in on Friday a few weeks ago  so I could see what it was like. I had my appointments the next Monday and Tuesday afternoon. The lady seemed really nice and welcoming so I went ahead and said yes. I arrived on Monday a little nervous but open minded. The insertion was fine and I felt no pain. The water then went quite hot and I told her and she turned it down and it went freezing. It then went freezing cold then boiling hot and I thought it was going to burn me. She had no control over the temperature and she couldn't keep it at a normal temp and was a little bit apologetic. She also answered her mobile phone TWICE during the procedure. The procedure was quite painful and it made my stomach pains really bad and I was crying at stages during the procedure and crying in pain again afterwards. After finishing we went out to pay and I was crying and she wanted to know why, so I told her that I was in lots of pain and I wouldn't be coming back tomorrow for another treatment. She then asked how long I had been sick and asked if I wanted to stay like this for the rest of my life. I am no doctor but she did not know my history, all she new was that I was about to start antibiotics for blasto and a colonic washout was only recommended. She could not provide me with any proof this could help the antibiotics work but my doctor believed it COULD help and that it had helped a few other ladies he had treated. That was 3 ladies that the antibiotics worked and they could have just worked on their own. The colonics lady did not know this. I believe it was not her place to put guilt on me and as we walked out I was so very upset.  I am in the middle of writing a letter to the company telling them my experience.

Not last Saturday but the one before that (30 of July) 3 of my besties and my Japanese student (and my mum) were coming home from a little outing and we were driving along a main road at 9pm. We were coming over a hill and we noticed something on the road. At first we thought it was just a pile of clothes but then we realised it was a man!! He was on the right hand lane and we were in the middle lane. As we drove past he got up and danced over to the other lanes of traffic going the other way. He then got hit by a car as we went over the next hill and we didn't see anything after that. One of my friends who saw the most was very shocked and upset and we were all very shaken. We then pulled over and my mother rang the police and told them what we had seen and that she was not prepared to go back there as she had us 5 girls in the car. Well fast forward to last week and the police rang my mum. They told her he was a crazy man and had to be handcuffed just to get him in the ambulance. He's safe and well but he has a long criminal record/history. That was all a bit scary but we are all just fine.

I won my first giveaway today and I was absolutely ecstatic!! It really made me feel so much better and it was a pattern I almost bought a few weeks ago. The pattern is from made but I won it on this blog. I can't wait to start making dresses for me for a cruise we are going on in December and for cute little other girlies I know!!

Well I think thats all I've missed for now. I have to go and start some assignments and watch some TV!!

Have a great weekend!!

Charlotte;)

Sick...really sick

I started 3 different drugs to treat my blasto and they have made me really really sick.

I've had 6, 5mg tablets of oxycodone since Wednesday night as well as panadeine forte and nurofen.

I feel sick, my stomach is very very painful, my legs and arms ache, I have terrible nausea and a terrible headache. I have no energy whatsoever and have to be fead. Even writing this post is making me tired.

This is day 4 of a 10 day course and I can't stop!!

Praying that I get better soon and this is all worth it!!!

Charlotte;)